phase 10

Life changes rapidly and completely often for me. If I had to break it up into phases it might be something like this.
Phase 1: birth to 5. Living in Cumberland, the baby years.mwmories consist of everything being new, and sometimes frightening.

Phase 2: 5 to 11. Living in Inman, the elementary school years.playing outside till dark and only worried about fun.

Phase three, 11 to 15. The transitional years. Living in various places, and learning how to really make friends.

Phase four: 15 to 18. Living in chesnee, the highschool years.being awkward, but feeling good.

Phase five: 18 to 21. The college years. Thnking I knew much more than I did.

Phase 6: 21 to 23: the croatia years. Being jealous of myself.

Phase 7: 23 to 25 the coming home years. What do I do now?! I'm qualified for nothing.

Phase 8: 25 to 29: the learning to live phase. Working that job and wondering if this is it!?

Phase 9: 29 to yesterday at noon. The self-doubt phase. Feeling depressed, like I can't make any good decisions anymore and will be stuck doing the same thing forever phase.

And now, Phase 10. I don't know exactly what its going to be called, but it feels like its going to be much better than phase 9. Right now I've got possibilities, hope and will. We'll see how it unfolds.

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