Where did you go!?

Judge Me Not Ye Saints
For My History May Be Tainted
But I'm Sober Enough To Know Blood When I See It
I've Borne My Share Of Stones
Most Of Them Easily Thrown
But Who's To Deny
Your Water-Shed Side
Leading Me Home?
CHORUS
What Am I Supposed To Do About It Now?
Past Regrets And Long Laments They Find Me Somehow
O, What Am I Supposed To Do About It Now?
What Have I To Do But Fall Down?
To Spy From Far Away
May Seem That I'm One To Betray
But O, How I Try
The Spirit To Guide
The Promise You Made
CHORUS
Hold Me Up
Never Let Me Go
Love Me When I Am Broken
And Speak To Me


Everytime I hear this song by Jennifer Knapp it absolutely bleeds deep into my soul. Its obvious that, even though her career was mysteriously shortlived, that she had a gift for writing heartwrenching lyrics and singing them with so much passion that you couldnt deny their connection to your own heart.
Everytime I hear any song by Jennifer Knapp..I run to my computer just to google it again...is there anything new? has anyone heard from her? Is this a marketing tease? 4 years with not a peep and we salivate, desperately wanting to hear something new.
Well, its working if thats the case.


But I dont think it is the case. I speculate that something happened. Something that no one is willing to talk about. I think about what something like that might be. Its amazing the dark things that my mind can dream up. Her music drew such a brilliant correlation between her thoughts and my own that I wish I just knew a little. I wish I knew enough to know if those same conversations with God led her in the same directions. I miss the feeling of community that her lyrics created. I miss sitting in a car with someone else, listening to her talk about knowing how to break a man in two...and having it strike its own powerful chord in our hearts. She was so in touch with the depths of her own carnality...she knew exactly how much she needed a savior. She knew exactly how worthless she was without God.

I miss connecting to her on those levels.

Please come back again Jennifer...

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