So what about 2009

I don't have a lot of problems.

Don't read it wrong. Its not because I dont fail constantly at what I attempt, but rather because I just dont attempt much.

In recent years even, I had just foregone the whole resolution thing. I always say its because EVERYONE does it and I just don't see the point.
But its impossible not to. There is always some sense of lingering contempt that I have for some (or many) areas of my life.
This year is no different.
And yet it is.

I have so many things that seem to have backed up in the last 30 years. Dreams and hopes and ideas and even tasks and plans and just STUFF that has piled up into a big mess of OH NO I need to GET ON THE BALL!...

So..
I thought and I thought...and after a few enlightening conversations with friends I've decided upon my 2009 resolution/mantra.
It is simply, "To Do What I Should, When I Should."

It's so simple. And I need a resolution that simple. I need one that encompasses all of these leftovers from years past. I need one that embraces all the missions and wishes of the resolutions of the future. I need SOMETHING that will change everything I've somehow managed to leave behind or mess up in the last 30 years.

Now if you over-think it, it could seem impossible. There are so many things that we should all be doing that we arent aware of, and if we all did what we should all the time, we would never get anything else done. Its less complicated than that. Its not that I'm going to try every new vitamin, or colon cleanses, or get a personal trainer, or sell my car or anything life altering really. Its just that in the everyday, the first time I hear the inner-nag, I'm just going to succumb to it. I'm going to just do that which I know I should when I should. That means physically, mentally, socially, financially, medically, humanitarianally, ecclesiastically, beautificationally, cleanlinessally, really...in any area that a "Should" might pop up in.

Its ALMOST a passive resolution. From now on, I'm just going to cave in to the responsible side of myself. I'm going to succumb to the nag...thats it...no more fighting or wasting energy to make up excuses. Sometimes the energy expended to fail to do something is greater than the energy to just do it.
So I am going to.

as I should
When I should

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