My relationship with the Man.

The Man and I have been in our relationship now for nearly five years. And through those years I've grown to overlook some of his flaws. His calousness in decision making, his abrupt change, his strictness, unwillingness to relent, his desire for success over much else, his high demands, the way he drags his feet to please me. But today I was thinking about leaving him and realized, I do really like it here. I like the action, and adventure, and the money, and the benefits. he pays for just about all of my medical expenses. He rewards me when I do something great.
But now he wants me to move.

And i just don't know if I like him enough to do that. He's not showing me all his cards. Sure, he's been good to me up to this point, but what makes me think he'll continue if I leave with him?

Maybe if I do run away with him, he'll give me more money....or he'll trust me more because I trusted him and he'll give me more fun things to do...Maybe we'll get even closer, maybe we'll grow farther apart. Maybe I'll get up there and meet something new...something that really gets me. maybe he'll meet someone new and won't need me anymore.

I just don't know what to do.

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Anonymous said…
I hear of this questionable move with man. I say...if the man does you right and the man pays your bills perhaps it's profitable. But the person that loves you a lot says, why the hell does the man get to take you further away from me than you already are. I say to hell with the man, unfortunately is not the adult way...guess it's a good thing I like women eh?
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Griffie said…
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