Eh, Whatever...

First day off in my two day vacation. It wasn't a bad day. I followed the next day of my schedule which was to do tempo running for 40 minutes. I got to go with Betsy and Darla to the riverfront park. It kinda stunk as it was the first time I had run in the cold. I wasn't nearly as strong out there as I am on the cushy comfortable treadmill at the gym. I made it probably a half a mile before stopping. I get too distracted (eh, Whatever).

I'm typing this while waiting for Betsy to cook her Biggest Loser dinner and she reminded me that I had yet to share that my sheer hatred for Dr. Oz subsided after reading his website and seeing that he actually makes a menu for you to follow to help you get all the calories you need without any of the 5 terrible horrible things he says to avoid. So, though I'm trying to not eat the wrong stuff, I don't have much of a choice until Thursday. (pay day obviously) Thursday I'll go shopping at publix...which I've mostly been opposed to as its completely expensive, but they have the best produce, so I may just have to suck it up and spend more.

My feet hurt today, which lets me know that I might also need to find the money to buy a new pair of shoes. (As well as drop a couple dozen pounds..eh whatever.) Doctors told me when I was in my four-wheeler wreck that I would need to always have cadillac shoes so that my feet wouldn't get hurt...AGAIN..just one more thing I'll have to suck it up and spend money on. Its all good. (right now its all good, it won't be all good if i drop a hundred on shoes and then my brakes fail, EH WHATEVER!!)

After walk/running with the girls, I spent the rest of the day cleaning my house...And oh what a chore...I ended up walking 8,000 steps cleaning..Thats what happens when you've got a lot of trash in your house, and your dumpster is 140 steps away.....BUT the house is SPARKLY clean and I'm friggen exhausted. But, Eh, whatever....

The Eh, whatever place I'm in is different from the Eh, whatever place I normally go to...Normally it means that just don't care any more and I'll do whatever I feel like regardless of how bad it is for me. This time its more like I have this goal out in front of me and all I want to do is finish, so, if i have to spend money, or walk extra steps in life, then I don't care, its not worth whining about how hard it seems like its going to be, because it will be hard, and it will take a long time to get there. If I stop caring about how hard it is now, then maybe being healthy and active will seap its way into my pattern of habit and the habits can shape me from there.

"Concentration is the ability to think about absolutely nothing when it is absolutely necessary." - Ray Knight

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