Contentment

I had a friend once who used to study one word for a full year. He would choose a word That represented a trait he wanted to strengthen over the course of that year and pray for it, read about it and memorize verses about it.

A year is a little long for me...

I mean cummon!!

so I'm going to spend the rest of the calendar year focusing on my word.

you want to know what it is...i know.

Contentment.

it all started when I thought...if only I could figure out what Gods plan was for my life right now...where am I supposed to be? what am I supposed to be doing?

as though there is some other place. Some other path that would make me happier or more full of life.

As though where I am and what I am doing is something other than what God would want.

As though I weren't exactly where he intended me to be.

Exactly where he intended me to be.

The phrase echoed in my head for a while. The "grass is greener"complex many of us suffer from its greatly quelled by that notion: "i am exactly where he intended me to be."

When I let myself rest there I got more and more relaxed.

I am exactly where he intended me to be.

I have everything I need to make the right decisions about life right now. I have all the strength I need to make the changes i wish to make.

My intuition...my gut...my logic...my vision is exactly enough to steer my ship. If I need more, he'll give me more. If I need obvious intervention...he will provide that too. He will provide.

I have ample reason to be perfectly content.

So I'm going to focus more on striving for deep contentment than striving for anything else.

we'll see how it goes. I'll keep you filled in of course.

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