Eve in the Evening

Its dumb..
but i'll confess..
I watched Britney Spears behind the music.

I'm ashamed...but go ahead and laugh.
If it redeems me at all, I fell asleep to it. I took a nice long nap. When I woke up, the show had ended and another had started, "Eve Behind the Music."
I dont know a whole lot about Eve. I'll admit it. I know she has panther paw prints on her boobies..I know she wore some tragic outfits to some award shows. I know she's an MC. I know she did some acting. What was it, Barbershop? Aside from that, I'm no Eve expert. And even today, after watching Behind the Music, I'm still no Eve expert. Thats because I woke up when it was halfway over and got lost in my own day dreams before it ended.

It was interesting though, the part I saw. When I woke up the announcer guy said, "Just like before, Eve was confronted with defeat, but instead of turning to depression like she had so many times before, something was different, Eve had matured."

Eve had matured.

hmm.

Then Eve came on and she said, "I looked at my life and thought, I know what I want, and I know who I want to be, I'm 28 and I have a choice."

The announcer didnt tie his thoughts to hers, but it works. Eve's mature thought was "I'm 28 and I have a choice."

I always make fun of celebrities. Clearly they are not more enlightened than we are...but the truth is, they go through a lot of crap. And Eve sure did make a lot of bad choices before she made that statement. But at 28, she knew who she wanted to be and was going to make choices to be it.

I sat on my couch, still half asleep and drooling on myself and thought really hard about the simplicity of that statement. Adulthood, growing up, aren't about being free, or even learning to be stodgy and responsible...
But it is about taking responsibility for who you are.

Sure sure, we're born into circumstances, we're born into families, we're born with certain flaws, and maybe even medical conditions...But from the point we start making choices we become exactly who we are. When you were a kid sneaking cookies when no one was looking, you were making a choice. When you were a teen not studying history, you were making a choice. When you were a young adult and did or didnt get married, you were making a choice...

In short, by the time you turn 28, you are who you are because you chose your way there.

And who you become next will be who you choose to be.

Sure there will be things you cannot control, circumstances you would never choose for your life...but greater is the power to enhance or destroy the outcome of your life in the choices you do have, than in uncontrollable circumstances.

Don't ask me what I'm going to do with Eve and her philosophy on maturity. I've haven't made that choice yet.

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