its just too dang late...

I can't sleep. AGAIN!!!

Honestly, I've not slept much at all since I heard they were inviting us to Charlotte.
Sometimes I have a hard time falling asleep when there are no life altering decisions to make...now that my head is full of crap constantly its even harder. I just sit at the computer, searching things, researching, googling..sometimes just staring.

You would think I would be really excited about all of this...and don't get me wrong...part of me really is...part of me is ready for change and adventure, and excitment and NEW!...

but damn..it is a lot to do...AND its a lot to change.
On top of everything, i realized a while back, that not staying in columbia meant that I wasnt going to be getting a house...with a yard...for the dog...
and now I'm faced with ANOTHER decision....Do I keep the pup? I've hated the last couple years of his life...these are the best years he's got...why am I forcing him to live them out in a 600 square foot box? Its so mean...and I hate myself for doing it. So I'm leaning very much to giving him away...But damn, I don't know how to do that. I mean...dealing with saying goodbye to this little guy I've known since puppyhood is one thing...But how does one track down really good pet owners? Thats all I really care about...that he gets someone with a yard...maybe a real devoted runner who will take him with them...
I'm dropping him at the kennel in the morning for a few days...I guess I'll start there. Ask them if they happen to know anyone. I guess I have time to figure all that out.

Maybe.

then again...
when someone is told to wait...but not told how long to wait...how does one genuinely know how much time they've got?

Its a mystery!

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